In Memory of a Dear Friend

This past week I lost a very close friend.  I have talked about her countless times here on my blog, her name is Brittany Nicholas and she got in a terrible car accident on Tuesday the 26th.  The injuries on her brain were too extreme and she passed away on Wednesday the 27th. She was only 19 years old.

My experience with losing a close friend so far has been confusing...I feel a sense of helplessness. Since I found out, I don't think it has truly hit me..I don't know if it's normal, but I haven't had that sinking heart feeling, it feels more like numbness. One second I'm bawling my eyes out and the next I'm staring blankly at a wall, unsure what to feel or think.

Brittany and I have been good friends since 7th grade. When I was younger I had slight problems with making friends, but of course Brittany being the person she was, accepted me right away. That's one of the amazing things about her, she accepted people as they were no matter where they came from or what they had done. Her heart was so big! She truly cared about every single person that entered her life. I am so grateful that I was lucky enough to call her my friend. During high school we were both involved in cheerleading, golf, Student Senate, and National Honor Society.  In each of those Brittany went beyond what she was expected to do. She always was the first one to get things done and she always pushed herself further and further. This wasn't only in high school, we both decided to go to Northern Michigan University after graduating.  I ended up living in an apartment with her and Damion (her boyfriend of 4 1/2 years). During the school year she hardly ever skipped class, which is hard when you so easily can.  She had more ambition than any one I know!

I got to share so many memories with her and I am so grateful! She is one of the greatest friends I have ever had and I am going to miss her more than I can put into words.  Once someone is gone you really realize how important they were to you. I would complain about Brittany's messiness all the time, but now I would do anything to see her clothes scattered around our old room.  

Brittany had a passion for singing, throughout our friendship we had sang together many times.  This past year Brittany's dreams of becoming a professional singer were starting to be pursued.  Myself and i'm sure many others convinced her to start making videos and sharing them online.  I am so happy she did because now we have these videos to remember her by, photos are so special but videos are that much more special!

So in honor of her, I made a video showing the amazing life she did get to live.  She was surrounded by so many people that loved her so much.  It's very hard to stay positive in a situation like this but we just have to remember that it's all in God's plan.
Please keep her family and friends in your prayers. If you would like to share some kind words or memory you have of Brittany you can do so here --> Praying for Brittany
Feel free to share this video.
I love you Brittany <3